Being unemployed ain’t fun.
Let’s be honest. Being unemployed and looking for a job sucks. I could use other words and adjectives to describe it, but it really sucks regardless my vocabulary. This is not how I pictured myself after 8 years of university studies (including my MA). There is a huge gap between the university and the market world. Otherwise I can’t understand how I ended up my MA with Cum Laude merit, two bachelors and speaking 3 different languages… and I still haven’t found anything after 2 & 1/2 months, not even an interview.
True, I’m another European trying my luck in countries where I haven’t been born, neither fully integrated (due to my high mobility in the last 3 years). Still… I really dislike waking up every morning, spending hours in looking for associations/companies, sending my CV and cover letters… just to sit and wait. Wait for someone to contact me, for someone who gives me the opportunity to show how “good worker” I can be. Meh.
I can see how a positive attitude is a strong feature in this job hunting situation. I can see how many people give up or feel completely frustrated and lost in piles of e-mails that might never been responded.
My controlling-self is totally angry with the world and the fact that I can’t hire myself (being entrepreneur ain’t a “realistic” option for me), while my optimistic-me is trying to accept things the way they come and let everything flow. I have no doubts that I will learn a valuable non-forgettable lesson from all this. I paint, knit, bake, clean and make personal presents, take French and Dutch lessons and a long etc of things I’m doing now that I have so much “free time.”
Still, no one ever shares how they left all this insecurity and negativity behind. We are not trained to face these passive periods in which there is nothing else to do but “doing your best and wait for it.”
Oh, well… this is how it it, and not embracing the situation as such will only make me suffer more (and those around me).
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