robistumbling said: Hi. What are/were you studying? Do think think that you will try to stay in the industry/discipline while not studying or look elsewhere?
Hey, Rob! Thanks for stopping by! =) I have a MA in Sociology (International Migration). I will stay in the industry (as you put it) as far as I have the economic means (which it is the case for a month or so). Once I run out of my savings I will just look for a casual job to maintain me. Worst case scenario, I will end up doing something I don’t want to for the sake of the money and keep searching for what I love at the same time. ^^
I read you’re doing a MA? What is your background?
The Ph.D. results are over and my doctorate won’t be happening this year. Two years ago I had a breakdown in which I imagined myself not doing a Ph.D. (something I dreamt of in the past 5 years). For this reason, assuming that I will stop my student life (at least) for this year it is not such a hard thing to deal with. However, not knowing what I will end up doing in the next following months and looking for a job in the meantime it is the real challenge.
I am active, I enjoy my routine and I love being busy (professionally and personally). Therefore, this all new situation it is a little bit stressful. Not necessarily bad, but different and hard for sure.
A while ago, someone mentioned to me the book “What color is your parachute?”, about job hunting. I found it and started reading it. A best-seller like this must have some good tips, I thought. Most of the advices mentioned there were familiar to me. However, there is one main point that I have to carve in my forehead and make sure I read it every morning when I look at my self in the mirror. Attitude is fundamental to finding a job. I am hard-worker, constant and a reliable person but lack of motivation or confidence in myself can be a huge anchor for my professional search. It is what it worries me the most and what I’ll have to pamper every-single-day. Let’s hope for the best. I’ll have to wait and see for the main results.
It is sunny in the Netherlands today. I’ll go for a jog with my love and make the best of this Sunday. Tomorrow I will make myself a schedule for the following weeks.
I don’t know if this already exists, but I wish there were a (public) diary of all people’s “failure” that turned out into a success. I say this because most of people tend to forget how they got what they wanted, they tend to skip the toughest parts of their lives. However, how many audition does an actor fail until it becomes famous? How many times are enough for a scientist to give up in an experiment? How many lines does a writer draft until it finds the perfect one?
I wish I were one of those people who remain calm under the storm. Summer it’s getting to an end and for the first time in years I have no idea what will I do with my life. Years dreaming of doing a Ph.D., dream that seems far from occurring due to the lack of funding and the number of competitors. Here I find myself, browsing through pages everyday trying to figure out what could I do besides being a Ph.D. student. I look at job positions wondering which will be “the one”, wondering how will I face the interviews, if I’ll have to move to a different country for it, and a long list of doubts that are constantly spinning in my head.
Since I haven’t found that diary yet, one that will keep me faithful knowing of how others overcame their own obstacles, I have developed some techniques. First, I try to meditate 10 min everyday. I wish it was a longer period, but finding silence in my mind during this time it’s already hard enough for me. Secondly, I go back in the past and try to remember those days in which I was also lost and found my way. Sure it was scary, I felt lost and anxious, but in the end I managed. Finally, I bring happy/positive memories to my mind from time to time. This is something a friend told me a while ago and it really works. I have few memories, most of the times they are the same, that I keep for myself… they help me travelling back in the past and experience the same joy I did at that precise moment.